Insomnia, Day 3
Aug. 7th, 2003 11:24 amI don't mind the bifocal lens in my glasses, as they are "invisible". I don't mind the loss of that fleeting first blush of youth, as my blush was mostly bashfulness anyway.
In general, record me as "on board" with aging.
But three out of the last four nights, that scourge of insomnia set in. Part of it, I know, is settling back into routine after a nine day business trip. But part of it, I strongly suspect, is this 40something thing. When I was 25 or 30, I got insomnia for the "right" reasons--adrenaline, broken heart, or a Friday night insomnia before a Saturday fun trip. But now? It's a part of my life. I don't think it's a sign of medical depression, which is, I suppose, the other option, but instead I think it's a judgment that:
a. when I work a sedentary life, I do not sleep as well as I should; and
b. I am over forty.
I also find two corollary rules here, through my special brand of poor deductive reasoning. They are:
a. I worry when I am tired that I offend everyone; and
b. I am much more open about what I think and feel when I am tired.
I notice, though, that lots of LJers are up all dawn, too. Does this mean that LJ ages us all?
In general, record me as "on board" with aging.
But three out of the last four nights, that scourge of insomnia set in. Part of it, I know, is settling back into routine after a nine day business trip. But part of it, I strongly suspect, is this 40something thing. When I was 25 or 30, I got insomnia for the "right" reasons--adrenaline, broken heart, or a Friday night insomnia before a Saturday fun trip. But now? It's a part of my life. I don't think it's a sign of medical depression, which is, I suppose, the other option, but instead I think it's a judgment that:
a. when I work a sedentary life, I do not sleep as well as I should; and
b. I am over forty.
I also find two corollary rules here, through my special brand of poor deductive reasoning. They are:
a. I worry when I am tired that I offend everyone; and
b. I am much more open about what I think and feel when I am tired.
I notice, though, that lots of LJers are up all dawn, too. Does this mean that LJ ages us all?
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Date: 2003-08-07 09:27 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2003-08-07 09:29 am (UTC)I notice too that I don't sleep well when I'm lazy all day. Pretty soon it seems like I'm never really asleep because I was never really awake.
I enjoyed talking with you last night, and found it fun (and unoffensive). Hope I could be the same. :-)
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Date: 2003-08-07 09:47 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2003-08-07 10:20 am (UTC)I think aging has a lot to do with poor quality sleep, among a plethora of other annoyances.
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Date: 2003-08-07 10:44 am (UTC)I think that caffiene exacerbates an already bad situation when not getting enough exercise. I can drink a gallon of (strong) iced tea during a day when doing lots of yardwork, and I'll sleep very well that night. But without the exercise, i don't sleep as well, and then add caffiene, and it's really rough.
I'm currently testing 5HTP for a week, to see how it changes things. I'm sleeping like the dead, am a bit groggy in the morning for a few minutes, but then am wide awake (not exactly my norm). And I'm not exercising much this week (since I haven't been, recently). It's been an interesting test so far.
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Date: 2003-08-07 11:07 am (UTC)What's 5HTP?
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Date: 2003-08-07 11:16 am (UTC)If you take more 5htp than the body can convert to seratonin, it's flushed out of the system much in the same way as taking large doses of vitamin C does (what the body doesn't need is just filtered out, without causing harm).
After a couple of nights, it does make a difference, but only about as much as actually getting exercise does for me (which is what I expected, since I don't have a history of depression).
So I'll continue it for a bit, and then go off it, and then try to dig into a good exercise regiment, and see if I get the same results (I'm expecting to).
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Date: 2003-08-07 09:40 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2003-08-07 09:50 am (UTC)have a definite 'cycle' like some who are manic/depressive.
all that aside, too little physical activity during your
'day' will definitely lead to inability to sleep soundly and
well.~paul
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Date: 2003-08-07 10:15 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-08-07 12:41 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-08-07 09:59 am (UTC)I can't sleep, yet I can't stay awake either. But I can lie on my bed for hours watching the pretty not-quite-dreams while I'm not-quite-sleeping.
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Date: 2003-08-07 10:11 am (UTC)I have not found you in the least offensive.
I think that perhaps some of our subconcious eeks out a bit when we are very tired, it also leaves those emotions/feelings very close to the surface.
I have noticed that LJ seems to age some people more than others. While I find some people very introspective, others just seem too busy living to reflect on life.
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Date: 2003-08-07 10:47 am (UTC)Therefore, I'm not very patient when I'm tired.
My co-workers usually figure out quickly that until I'm looking perky in the mornings, or have a cup of coffee in front of me, to keep clear (which I feel bad about, but I'm really quite the bitch until I'm awake).
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Date: 2003-08-07 11:10 am (UTC)no, it means LJ is addictive. As is caffiene .... a Doc. will probably tell you to cut out the caffiene. Which is hard as hell--are you only having one cup in the morning? or do you have it in the afternoon? afternoon is no no. Welcome to the tired, the poor, the yearning to be free. :-) middleage.
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Date: 2003-08-08 09:53 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-08-07 11:18 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-08-07 12:29 pm (UTC)what i understand is, there are two things that change over time/and fluctuate for everyone... availability of dopamine and the number of receptors. many times our bodies produce more receptors, if the dopamine level suggests to the body that it might have more available but there just aren't adequate receptors - something else is competing with the dopamine for the receptors, usually a drug. i'm still looking into it but according to my doctor he doesn't see why caffeine can't be one of the drugs that helps fool the body this way.
well ok so if you are like me the damage is done lol. drastically cutting down on caffeine as a course of action won't solve the problem, as a certain level of caffeine is now expected. but if you're like me you might have been interested in all that scientific nonesense anyway.
lol one thing that is independent of the caffeine cycle, if indeed it's there -- i'm no scientist of course - are the benefits of exercise, including but not limited to sex. my doctor emphasizes doing something that feels good, because that creates/promotes dopamine availability, but also moderate exercise will do that... and increase the levels of other healthy sleep regulators as well. it seems with all the walks you do that you are already exercising... how good does it feel? is there a way to make it feel better - or do you want to do something else?
or you can cheat and eat bananas and turkey. which i also do lolol. both those (and reportedly broccoli too but i havent felt any effects from broccoli) have chemicals in them that help regulate a good nites sleep, my shrink says they help keep the levels straight that we screw up with indoor lighting and being inside all the time. banana with breakfast and turkey for lunch, has really been helping.
anyway good luck. oh and i believe lj keeps us young, i really do, but that's another matter. :)
Change of life
Date: 2003-08-07 01:41 pm (UTC)Re: Change of life
Date: 2003-08-08 09:53 am (UTC)Insomnia
Date: 2003-08-07 04:50 pm (UTC)Avoid caffeine and sugar and try to keep the same schedule (or close to it) as often as possible..even when you're travelling. Hopefully the insomnia will pass. If it doesn't, see a doctor. People act like it's no big deal, but long term insomnia can be a sign that something much bigger is going on.
Yoga helps, too! Good luck!!
*throwing some zzzzzzzzzzz's your way*
Re: Insomnia
Date: 2003-08-07 10:38 pm (UTC)