no room at the inn
Dec. 15th, 2002 07:32 pmToday I worked on my holiday things. I sent some needful (and perhaps useful) e mails, completed several more holiday cards for mailing (I still have many to go, and not all the addresses I need, but I am working away at it), and completed some gift shopping for mailing out to relatives.
I was going to go to the Christmas program this evening at
texastornado_91's church, but when I went to the website for the program, it had already sold out. The church in question is one of those huge Baptist churches, so I was really impressed that it sold out. I contented myself instead by going to McKinney Towne Lake Park for a quick walk. On the way there, NPR's selected shorts featured a short story about a Baptist preacher's daughter in a Texas church camp who earned summer money by ghost-writing testimonials of conversion for other campers. It was amusing, and sad, and so Texan. I have known many of those "Baylor-alums-in-the-making" over the years, and this subculture of Texas protestantism is often parodied but rarely appreciated. I liked the story, which both parodied and appreciated these earnest Baptist folks.
I began my walk just after the sun set, when the horizon was an orange rim of afterglow, and the light was still present but was fading. I noticed that they have added "pedal swans" and "pedal ducklings" to the conventional park pedal boats. I have never experienced the park pedal boats, but the corny thrill of a pedal duckling may be too much to resist. I love pedal boats. In my ideal world, I would have a second home in the country which was tiny, but had a little pond in back with sunfish and a pedal boat, to which one gained access by pedaling a Rhoades pedal car. Talk about your childhood wishes--you can even eat the dishes.
My wife went to one of those parties where talented people show one how to do things, but my party equation had slipped to near zero this weekend (a personal failing, as the people at the party are fun), so I was much more content watching the man and his toddler feed the "real" swans and geese bread from a huge loaf of white bread. The fountain in the middle of the lake threw up its water spigot thirty feet or so into the air, and I felt so at one with my surroudings as I slowly circuited the walkway around the lake.
When I returned to my car, a winter music special was on the radio. A Swedish folk instrumental came first, a haunting piece which had a twinge of romany-sounding melody. As my wife's family is but a few generations removed from the old country, and still keeps some Swedish holiday traditions, I resolved to see about getting her family members CDs of Swedish holiday instrumentals for next Christmas. Kate Pierson of the B-52s played a rousing version of "California Dreaming", which was simply charming, and I was even taken in by the highly ornate newgrass instrumental.
Then I came back home and resumed making holiday cards. I have really enjoyed applying my meager skills to this process, as it makes the holidays seem special to me. If anyone wishes one who has not sent me an address, I'd love to send any friends or lurkers a card. This week I also tackle my non-immediate relatives, as my brother promises he has kept a detailed list of cousin-type addresses. I have tons of cousins all over the south, with a few having strayed to one coast or the other. I am not sure how family will feel about my throwaway camera shots on construction paper and corruplast, but I have reached the point in life in which I live my life largely in my own eccentric way, and don't worry too much about the rest of things.
Tomorrow night I go bowling with the DFW nanowrimo novelist contingent. I even arranged the lanes. At this rate, I will be a joiner--by the year 2465, about the time Star Trek 1240 is released.
I found a 3 dollar copy of "Making Simple Musical Instruments" this weekend at the remaindered store. Soon, no doubt, I'll be turning paper plates into dobros, or some such.
The Trent Lott matter continues to evolve. Senator Lott made an incautious remark at a going away party for Senator Strom Thurmond that the country would be better off if Senator Thurmond had won the presidential election in 1948, when Senator Thurmond was running on a platform of segregation. Even with people with whom I disagree, I tend not to assign too much weight to stupid things said at parties. But the emerging evidence that this has been a standard Lott modus operandi for decades disturbs me. In 1981, Mr. Lott went out of his way to file an amicus curiae (friend of the court) brief in favor of Bob Jones University, which sought to enforce as "Biblical" a ban on inter-racial dating. Mr. Lott's brief argued that racial discrimination should be permissible. This was absurd.
The result that is dictated is clear--Mr. Lott should step down from the Republican leadership and move to the back bench. But the radio is reporting that Mr. Lott has threatened that if he resigns, he will resign his entire Senate seat. I'd love to see Mr. Lott resign his Senate seat, as a Democrat would be appointed in all likelihood to replace him, by Mississippi's Democratic governor. But I'm amazed, quite frankly, that a man who has been an "enforcer" for party loyalty himself tries to play "take my marbles and go home" games with the White House. I am all for disarray in the Republican ranks, but what an unchivalrous approach Mr. Lott has taken. At least nowadays even Mr. Lott sees he must apologize profusely, often, and always for this gaffe. Mr. Thurmond, of course, never apologized for his views.
I grew up among that virulent racism that infected the south. It was awful, and it has not all passed away yet. The south is now a much different place, but these reminders of the Jim Crow days sadly remain. Perhaps it is time for the Trent Lotts of the world to go to the elephant graveyard, write memoirs, and catch up on their fishing.
I was going to go to the Christmas program this evening at
I began my walk just after the sun set, when the horizon was an orange rim of afterglow, and the light was still present but was fading. I noticed that they have added "pedal swans" and "pedal ducklings" to the conventional park pedal boats. I have never experienced the park pedal boats, but the corny thrill of a pedal duckling may be too much to resist. I love pedal boats. In my ideal world, I would have a second home in the country which was tiny, but had a little pond in back with sunfish and a pedal boat, to which one gained access by pedaling a Rhoades pedal car. Talk about your childhood wishes--you can even eat the dishes.
My wife went to one of those parties where talented people show one how to do things, but my party equation had slipped to near zero this weekend (a personal failing, as the people at the party are fun), so I was much more content watching the man and his toddler feed the "real" swans and geese bread from a huge loaf of white bread. The fountain in the middle of the lake threw up its water spigot thirty feet or so into the air, and I felt so at one with my surroudings as I slowly circuited the walkway around the lake.
When I returned to my car, a winter music special was on the radio. A Swedish folk instrumental came first, a haunting piece which had a twinge of romany-sounding melody. As my wife's family is but a few generations removed from the old country, and still keeps some Swedish holiday traditions, I resolved to see about getting her family members CDs of Swedish holiday instrumentals for next Christmas. Kate Pierson of the B-52s played a rousing version of "California Dreaming", which was simply charming, and I was even taken in by the highly ornate newgrass instrumental.
Then I came back home and resumed making holiday cards. I have really enjoyed applying my meager skills to this process, as it makes the holidays seem special to me. If anyone wishes one who has not sent me an address, I'd love to send any friends or lurkers a card. This week I also tackle my non-immediate relatives, as my brother promises he has kept a detailed list of cousin-type addresses. I have tons of cousins all over the south, with a few having strayed to one coast or the other. I am not sure how family will feel about my throwaway camera shots on construction paper and corruplast, but I have reached the point in life in which I live my life largely in my own eccentric way, and don't worry too much about the rest of things.
Tomorrow night I go bowling with the DFW nanowrimo novelist contingent. I even arranged the lanes. At this rate, I will be a joiner--by the year 2465, about the time Star Trek 1240 is released.
I found a 3 dollar copy of "Making Simple Musical Instruments" this weekend at the remaindered store. Soon, no doubt, I'll be turning paper plates into dobros, or some such.
The Trent Lott matter continues to evolve. Senator Lott made an incautious remark at a going away party for Senator Strom Thurmond that the country would be better off if Senator Thurmond had won the presidential election in 1948, when Senator Thurmond was running on a platform of segregation. Even with people with whom I disagree, I tend not to assign too much weight to stupid things said at parties. But the emerging evidence that this has been a standard Lott modus operandi for decades disturbs me. In 1981, Mr. Lott went out of his way to file an amicus curiae (friend of the court) brief in favor of Bob Jones University, which sought to enforce as "Biblical" a ban on inter-racial dating. Mr. Lott's brief argued that racial discrimination should be permissible. This was absurd.
The result that is dictated is clear--Mr. Lott should step down from the Republican leadership and move to the back bench. But the radio is reporting that Mr. Lott has threatened that if he resigns, he will resign his entire Senate seat. I'd love to see Mr. Lott resign his Senate seat, as a Democrat would be appointed in all likelihood to replace him, by Mississippi's Democratic governor. But I'm amazed, quite frankly, that a man who has been an "enforcer" for party loyalty himself tries to play "take my marbles and go home" games with the White House. I am all for disarray in the Republican ranks, but what an unchivalrous approach Mr. Lott has taken. At least nowadays even Mr. Lott sees he must apologize profusely, often, and always for this gaffe. Mr. Thurmond, of course, never apologized for his views.
I grew up among that virulent racism that infected the south. It was awful, and it has not all passed away yet. The south is now a much different place, but these reminders of the Jim Crow days sadly remain. Perhaps it is time for the Trent Lotts of the world to go to the elephant graveyard, write memoirs, and catch up on their fishing.
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Date: 2002-12-15 07:09 pm (UTC)I grew up in a little Midwestern town with a very small black population. It's ironic that the most powerful African-American politician in Illinois, my home state, is from there. That's Roland Burris, who served something like two terms as Attorney General and ran for the U.S. Senate at least once.
Anyway, I hadn't heard that Lott would resign his Senate seat, altogether if not re-elected by colleagues as Republican leader. That's a desperate and possibly idle threat. Mississippi has a Democrat as governor, currently? I don't know. It would be irony upon irony if such a thing would cause the U.S. Senate to become evenly divided. I think it's possible that John McCain might even go independent, sometime in the next two years, especially if he has aspirations for a Presidential run in 2004.
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Date: 2002-12-15 07:54 pm (UTC)The Lott threat was an NPR lott aides' sources thing, so I don't now for sure. But it would be silly for him to even make such a threat. What an odd man.
why do we keep shrieking when we mean soft things?
Date: 2002-12-15 07:18 pm (UTC)Just seeing the word "dobro" does something crazy to my insides. My absolute favorite song has a line about a dobro. "I also have a dobro / Made in some mountain range / Sounds like a mountain range in love." And just seeing that word, "dobro," made me run looking for my cd. Which I am now happily/sadly listening to. For some reason it's so bittersweet it's almost unbearable. And I'm not quite sure why...maybe a sense of lost youth and innocence, I don't know. But I remember listening to said cd about a hundred times over as I was trying to sew some silly dress once. And the boy I loved gave it to me and I thought all the songs were about us. Anyway, the song is "100,000 Fireflies." Do you know it?
whispering comments
You remind me of the boy I knew in high school who suddenly began singing to his girlfriend (he had a beautiful tenor voice, by the way) the Boz Scaggs song which goes "why can't you just get it through your head? It's over, it's over now". Apparently, when it was over shortly thereafter, he claimed coincidence. I've never had a love give me an album to symbolize something like that, although I did receive a sort of surprise "you'e graduating and I'm not" going away party from someone I loved much more than she loved me (or so it seemed at the time, now I rather think I may have had it backwards, or sideways). This was a tape of all the various songs we listened to during the time we dated. The "game" was for me to pick out "our song". The choice was obvious, as Be Bop Deluxe's "Ships in the Night" had the wonderfully romantic lyric:
"Like a square peg in a round hole/
like a cloud without a sky/
like a sailor who sails no ocean/
like a mother without a child/
without love...our pleasure is blue",
which I duly chose, but I wonder if instead I should have chosen the lines from "Adventures in a Yorkshire Landscape" just before the one true guitar solo that puts me in some personal Heaven, and which goes:
"choirs on spires and chimneys of black/
fields on horizons and pylons that crack with/
singing sad wires, for council house mystics/
to apply the statistics, read tea leaves/
time knows no limits on days such as these"
because that moment was passing, but it seemed so timeless, somehow, and yet so anxious. I love that you can pick up that CD and teleport back to your bittersweet memory, and then turn it off and be with your current love in your current city a few hundred physical miles and a million metaphoric miles away. Memories, isn't that right?
It's less creditable, but I remember giving something to that same woman who gave me the cassette. After we "got back together" after a while apart, I gave her Ford Madox Ford's Parade's End. I don't know if you know the books, but Ford's protagonist is Christopher Tietjens, the noble throwback to the 18th C. stuck in early 20th C. England.
His wife, Sylvia, is the undependable promiscuous symbol of all the superficial problems of the modern era. I never really thought about it at the time, but now I feel a real pang, because my friend was much brighter than I am/was, and got the point instantly. For that matter, now that I recall, a year before, she had given me a novel by a southern novelist about a strait-laced hidebound man who marries a woman of wit and feeling and then exiles her to live in the country. My goodness, we were all so literary in those college days!
Thanks for sharing this song story with me, it obviously evoked a lot even as I wrote this reply.
the boys talk like they own the world; the women keep their stupid diaries...
Date: 2002-12-15 07:57 pm (UTC)Ah, memory. I'm getting sort of weepy, now. I think I'm just tired. But I fall in love all the time--with people, with songs, with bits and pieces. It's weird.
Thank you for your (non-lj) message. I'll reply soon. And your holiday card is just splendid--another thank you!
I was so young, when I was born, my eyes could not yet see....
Date: 2002-12-15 08:12 pm (UTC)Surely that you live in the moment with things you like is a tremendous credit--at least it seems that way to me.
I'm glad you liked the card! I am always a little abashed to send them to people like you who can craft so well, but I learned during this year to just let go and do on artistic stuff. I had made home-made holiday cards before, but this is a larger effort than usual.
As to the other, I'm always hesitant to impose, so don't feel badly if you just don't have time to get to that in your life right now. I just thought about the various material things I might mail that way, and thought to myself it might be more useful to be a sounding board than a merchandise source :).
Oh, but I do have this worn but fun book for British schoolteachers in the 1930s on how to teach book binding in school. Would you like it?
Re: I was so young, when I was born, my eyes could not yet see....
Date: 2002-12-16 07:27 pm (UTC)I would love to see the British how-to-teach-bookbinding book--I'm sure it's way beyond me! But we must work out some sort of trade if you are to send it...
Re: I was so young, when I was born, my eyes could not yet see....
Date: 2002-12-16 09:05 pm (UTC)Perhaps I could "commission" one, too.
I'll have to find my little book. I got it used on ebay, and, as I often do, read the parts that interested me and finished with it, so it's ripe for a new owner. It's not really a "crafts" book per se, so much as "how to teach crafts", and the condition of the book, while okay, is a bit less than I was expecting. Still, if you'd like to do a trade, and don't mind if what you get in the exchange might be imperfect, then I'm certainly game :)!
Re: I was so young, when I was born, my eyes could not yet see....
Date: 2002-12-17 06:26 am (UTC)I stopped buying books from eBay. They were never in very good shape. I received one once that was touted as "fine" condition and it had active mold! Ick. I took the opportunity to educate the seller. ;)
Re: I was so young, when I was born, my eyes could not yet see....
Date: 2002-12-17 07:22 am (UTC)Active mold. How awful.
I still buy lots of books on ebay and half.com, but now that I think about it, the few bad experiences were when I bought a "vintage" book rather than a mere reading copy. I guess that teaches me something.
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Date: 2002-12-16 09:07 pm (UTC)Re: I was so young, when I was born, my eyes could not yet see....
Date: 2002-12-17 06:27 am (UTC)Holiday cards and Trent Lott...(what a combo!)
Denise Kemp
2501 Weatherby Drive
Apt. #247
Arlington, TX 76006
As for Mr. Butthead Lott ~ he really did a number on the American people. I'm usually proud to be a Republican, but I'm totally ashamed of what is happening right now. In my humble opinion, we the people should have his head on a platter! I hope that his party will stand up and oust him. I lived in Hattiesburg, MS for three years while going to school at USM and saw first hand how some thing have NEVER changed for African Americans. It disgusted me to see how some courthouses were proud to show off their 'historical' water fountains ~ one marked for the white folks and one marked for the black folks.
I'm a firm believer that what rolls out of your mouth at an unexpected time, be it a party or other activity, is usually exactly what you mean. Lott was a closet racist until he opened the door last week.
Okay, I better stop ~ I could ramble forever!
Thanks for the kind offer of sending cards :-)
Re: Holiday cards and Trent Lott...(what a combo!)
Date: 2002-12-15 07:45 pm (UTC)Re: Holiday cards and Trent Lott...(what a combo!)
Date: 2002-12-15 08:13 pm (UTC)Also, a quick note: I read your webpage and it's excellent! I love how you wrote about the journey being the pivotal point.....
I've shared the link with my daughter. She'll enjoy it greatly. I'm guessing that your writings will be around the OU campus in a few days ~ she loves to share good reads :-)
Re: Holiday cards and Trent Lott...(what a combo!)
Date: 2002-12-15 09:41 pm (UTC)Re: Holiday cards and Trent Lott...(what a combo!)
Date: 2002-12-17 05:37 pm (UTC)Thank you for taking the time to make and send it :-)
~Denise~
Re: Holiday cards and Trent Lott...(what a combo!)
Date: 2002-12-18 12:01 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2002-12-15 08:21 pm (UTC)Trent Lott is an idiot and should step down. He must have a lot of dirt on people to get to be Senate Majority leader. That's the only explanation that makes sense to me. He's becoming a liability to his party now.
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Date: 2002-12-15 09:18 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2002-12-15 10:05 pm (UTC)as for the energy of Christmas cards, the enthusiasm you express and your overall positive attitude--kudos. your creativity is inspiring. thanks.
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Date: 2002-12-16 05:47 am (UTC)thanks for the kind words on the cards
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Date: 2002-12-16 04:27 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2002-12-16 09:19 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2002-12-16 09:14 am (UTC)Racism infects the entire nation, not just the south. In the south you have an OVERT brand of racism, whereas in the north their ilk of racism is COVERT. Actually I prefer that which is stated to that which exists but is obfuscated and institutionalized. Mr. Lott simply stated what he truly felt, those who would like to believe things have been equalized are outraged, while those who have actually been discriminated against glower. This is nothing new or even newsworthy, it is doubtful in a nation which now has a president who wasn't even elected any good will actually come from this 'revealation'. I shall say a prayer that Mr. Lott receives his just desserts, be they good or bad..shall we pray together for a country of silent Trent Lotts?
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Date: 2002-12-16 09:19 am (UTC)Very well said.
Date: 2002-12-16 03:25 pm (UTC)Re: Very well said.
Date: 2002-12-17 05:42 am (UTC)